I got my own bass yesterday. It’s a Peavey Milestone III in sunburst with a white pickgaurd and it came with the gig bag and a Crate amp. I got a pretty decent deal on it. Also, I was kind of set that I wanted a Peavey so I just snatched it up. I went with my friend to go and try it out and it needs new strings, but that was the only thing wrong with it.
Then I got home and I couldn’t sleep. I bought a bass guitar and amp? What the hell is wrong with me? Isn’t it too early to be having a mid-life crisis? Instead of buying a convertible, I bought a guitar. I’m too old for the rockstar dream. Musician was one of the things I was worst at. Maybe I just needed to spend more time playing RockBand on my friend’s Wii and get this out of my system.
I was tossing and turning thinking about the amount of money I’d invested in what started as a lark. Everyone has been encouraging me, and my friend at the Apocalyptica concert said I was a good guitar player and he never understood why I quit. I quit because I sucked. But I guess… and this is with a lot of hesitation… I have to admit, begrudgingly, that I sometimes am a pretty modest person and undervalue myself often. So maybe he’s right (he is a guitar player), I don’t know. I like playing, it makes me happy and relaxed. And now that I’ve put some money into it I really feel like I have to do this.
I’m still panicking a little. I need to go home and bond with my guitar.